Brigham Young University
"I just might take you up on that," I said. Then I paused and thought about it a bit. "Do you really think that Mom and Dad will let you transfer to another university like that?"
"They can let me or not as they please," replied April. "All I know is that next Fall I won't be here. Either they'll help me find something else or I'll help myself."
I couldn't help but admire her courage and determination. It was crazy though to admire what was essentially determination to sin, when everyone knows that the most courageous act should be to listen to your leaders and obey. I now had a some new things on my mind in addition to the Computer Science homework that I had planned for that evening, so I bid April goodnight and went back to my room to study.
Back in my room, I sat at my desk and said as little as possible to Janie while doing my homework. Fortunately the logic of the programs described in my textbook was appealing enough to keep me interested. I had this nagging thought in the back of my mind that I didn't want to have dwelling too much in the foreground.
With most temptations to sin, the degree of temptation wasn't all that different from one person to the next. Sure it varied, but homosexuality was an extreme case because it seemed that it wasn't at all tempting or even appealing for the average person, whereas for a certain set of people it tended to be their primary struggle. In April's case, even though I hadn't noticed it before, I was struck with the powerful impression that it was something that was a part of her and always had been. I was glad to have a distraction from the question of why the Lord would create people in this way only to send them to a therapeutic reconditioning to mold them into something else.
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