1. He's perfect for the part
2. You're my obsession
3. A question of morality
4. Could I really love a man who could do something like this?
5. A problem and a solution
6. A favor for a friend
7. The grace period
8. Trying to make things right again
9. The sort of spiritual experience eternal companions should share

• (character chart)
• (caution/disclaimer)

1. Young Women's
2. Youth Conference
3. Saturday's Warrior
4. Brigham Young University
• Gratuitous Love Scene
5. Polygamist
6. Temple Wedding
7. Orem High
8. Bordeaux Mission
9. Exmo Conference

Driving through town was exhilarating but scary, the turns especially. Everything seemed to be coming at me so fast, and I had no control at all. All I could do was hold on tight and trust Jake.

It wasn't long before I started feeling a little queasy. As soon as we got onto the highway, it seemed like it should be better, but it wasn't. The road was now smooth and straight, but the mild vibration of it was making me downright nauseous.

I started frantically tapping Jake's arm and pointing at the side of the road. Jake pulled over and stopped, and I managed to get the helmet off just in time to avoid puking into it.

Jake took off his own helmet and asked "Are you okay Jill? Do you need to take a break?"

"I'm okay," I said. "I'm starting to feel better already. Anyway, if we start taking breaks every few minutes from the very beginning, we'll never get there."

"Okay," he said. "Have you been getting sick like that a lot lately?"

"No, that was the first time," I said. "I'm sure I'll be okay."

He got out a water bottle and had me drink some, and then we got back out onto the highway. I started to feel a lot better this time. I was already starting to get used to the sensation of riding, and could just enjoy the feeling of motion and watching the scenery go by.

Actually, going south on I-15 wasn't the most picturesque way to leave Utah Valley. Compared to the canyons, this stretch of slowly meandering highway was almost desolate. Occasionally my gaze would follow a small bush as we passed by it. It was almost hypnotic.

I couldn't help but feel like it was a little bit sexy riding behind Jake pressed up against him like that. There was something undeniably masculine and powerful about his control over the bike.

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It was kind of funny to be in this position. As a kid I had always been interested in Rex's friends whenever he invited them over to the house. Rex was such a nice brother that he would occasionally let me hang out and play games with him and his friends if his friends didn't mind. Of course the bigger boys weren't interested in me at all, but that didn't stop me from fantasizing that I might attract one of them.

I remembered how years ago Rex would make these elaborate Lego cities with Jake and Ben. They were always kind enough to set aside a plot or two for me and some bricks so that I could have a house or building or something in their city.

Actually back then I probably had a little more of a crush on Ben than on Jake, but at that age I would have gladly taken either one had one been interested. Now I wasn't so sure how I felt anymore. Certainly Jake was attractive, but not like Walter.

Walter was so exceptionally beautiful and charming. Of course it was clear that his uncontrolled passion could have disastrous consequences. But I imagined that going on a mission would help him grow spiritually and maybe teach him some self-discipline. I thought that perhaps on his return his desire for me would be transformed into a pure, spiritual love like my sister Kathy's love for her missionary Bob.

Around noon Jake pulled into a gas station to fuel up the bike and I went in and paid. As we walked around and stretched a bit, Jake suggested that we get some lunch at the diner next door.

We went in and took a booth off away from the other people who seemed to be mostly clustered around the counter. I just ordered two eggs and toast. Jake ordered a hamburger and fries and coffee.

It seemed normal for him to be ordering coffee since we were on a road trip and it's always important for the driver on a road trip to stay alert. Even my parents did the same thing. Still I imagined that at Jake's house his mom probably made coffee all the time, so maybe his taking coffee today wasn't just a special exception.

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